Through The Silver And Glass
Sep. 23rd, 2002 07:48 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
venetianarchiveStill in the white time. Some accomplishment is occurring, I suppose - I have reconnected with a few good friends, which was wonderful, and discussed further the hard choices of the future. I do need to force myself to take the big steps now though - I can tell where I'm hanging back. So much to do -
But, it was a nice weekend, altogether. I spent one entire day accompanying the daughter of a friend to the Renaissance Faire, and we also saw Spirited Away, which is one of the most weirdly beautiful and true films I have seen in quite a while. It pleased me greatly. I also managed to relax a little, letting out a breath - although I'll need to take another soon, and hold it, though the uncertainty and difficulty that lies ahead. Sometimes I fear I am not directed enough, that I should think more of settling - of not my career, then my home or my relationships. But I have no desire to do any of these - I can't make it too easy, after all, since anything worth having is worth achieving. I distract myself too easily, with books and television and news. I must work on focusing, truly - perhaps my plan to pursue meditation will help in this regard.
But, it was a nice weekend, altogether. I spent one entire day accompanying the daughter of a friend to the Renaissance Faire, and we also saw Spirited Away, which is one of the most weirdly beautiful and true films I have seen in quite a while. It pleased me greatly. I also managed to relax a little, letting out a breath - although I'll need to take another soon, and hold it, though the uncertainty and difficulty that lies ahead. Sometimes I fear I am not directed enough, that I should think more of settling - of not my career, then my home or my relationships. But I have no desire to do any of these - I can't make it too easy, after all, since anything worth having is worth achieving. I distract myself too easily, with books and television and news. I must work on focusing, truly - perhaps my plan to pursue meditation will help in this regard.
