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venetianarchiveWell, I'm taking the stoicism to new heights - following on the zen meditation MCLE, I have started going to Zen Center for zazen and service, and it's my aim to start doing so at least once a week. I've worked out that I can sit comfortably and effectively for between twenty to thirty minutes at a time, so the next step is to work on sitting at home so that I can increase that period. For that, I need a zafu and zabuton, and until I get them, I'm probably going to have to improvise. I'm rather disappointed to realize that they don't do old-school posture correction here in liberal San Francisco - it would be useful for when I become unfocused and start to fall asleep. And I must admit that while the spark for this idea started long ago with my favorite singer and poet and a place called Mount Baldy - (Figure that one out!) the drive to get it accomplished has been enhanced by my sense of stoicism, my need for discipline, my desire for focus, and my interest in all things Japanese, as a part of my heritage that I once sublimated, but now feel I should embrace. But from here on out, more sitting and walking meditation, learning to be more mindful, and hopefully more serene.
Until I can devote myself more fully, however, there's still a little time to embrace hedonism and sensuality, and hence the departure to Red Mountain. (It's also my reward for surviving trial and the resultant negative feedback, although we're far from out of the woods on that one - the future remains uncertain.) On the bright side, savings are still healthy - worst case scenario, I won't come out of the past two years with nothing. Otherwise, a few loose ends to tie, and back to the planning - after some good work, I'm dragging my heels on applications again, plus now I have double the homework to worry about. And all the million other little things to want and worry about - smog check (done), insurance (to do), corset (to pick up), and a lingering desire for a dragon dress that I would wear where, exactly? One can tell I need the meditation, if only to clear my mind of clutter -
Until I can devote myself more fully, however, there's still a little time to embrace hedonism and sensuality, and hence the departure to Red Mountain. (It's also my reward for surviving trial and the resultant negative feedback, although we're far from out of the woods on that one - the future remains uncertain.) On the bright side, savings are still healthy - worst case scenario, I won't come out of the past two years with nothing. Otherwise, a few loose ends to tie, and back to the planning - after some good work, I'm dragging my heels on applications again, plus now I have double the homework to worry about. And all the million other little things to want and worry about - smog check (done), insurance (to do), corset (to pick up), and a lingering desire for a dragon dress that I would wear where, exactly? One can tell I need the meditation, if only to clear my mind of clutter -
